Wishing it Away 

It’s such a strange phenomenon. I spent my entire pregnancy wishing for it to be over and now that I’m not pregnant any more, I find myself saying that I miss it. I spent almost his entire first year not-so-patiently waiting for him to hit certain milestones and then after the fact wanting to have those first few months back – you know, before he could do anything except eat, smile, and be cute. 

The whole concept of time is certainly something that I have a love/hate relationship with. Everyone talks about the journey being what’s important and that the destination shouldn’t matter quite so much. In a lot of ways, that’s true. It’s really easy, though, to become too wrapped up in the end result.

There are all of these things that I can’t wait for and that I want to do. Sometimes, it’s so hard to just live in the moment. I’m starting to feel like a broken record – saying the same things continuously. “When this… then that…” It never fails. 

I just got done telling my husband all about my crazy plans for the years to come – they include everything from building the little guy a sandbox to sending him off to college. All the while, I’m sure he’s doing everything he can not to laugh. I can’t help it that I happen to be a very forward-thinking individual. 

I need to spend some time working on just being in the here and now. I need to remember that nothing lasts forever and that these days are going to be gone before I know it. I could probably stand to do a better job of taking life as it comes and not spending so much time needlessly and endlessly considering the future and all of its many implications because let’s face it – life is constantly changing and there’s nothing I can do about that. When it’s all said and done, all I can do is just go with it. 

Do you ever find yourself unintentionally wishing it away? Do you have a love/hate relationship with the whole concept of time? Leave a comment and share.  

Written by: Cristi Wuenschel